Sentimelancholy

I wake up from my afternoon slumber
My heart beating fast
I feel nauseated, anxious, worried, and angry
Why I feel this way? Is my life is incomplete? Or is it because you're not by my side?

I really hate this feeling. I sometimes think why am I alone? I know this is my fault.
But lately you've been entering my mind. I see shadow of yourself.
I don't know why... maybe my regret has caught up with me
If only there's another chance... a chance which is only a dream

I will not expect too much of it. They told me go after you.
But knowing that chance would never come, and you already say non
My will start to shamble, I could only say... "For the best for you"
I wish to let you go that point on

But still the reflection of your face... bothering me again.
And near this Easter, those vision is getting stronger
Since you avoid all contact with me, I probably won't try to bother you
Trying not to hurt you anymore
It's okay, it's allright... getting back together is just a fairytale for me

I think those who can get back together are the luckiest couple alive
I'm a realist... who suffers when the dreamers can meet their dream
By the time I manage to get my dream to see you again, it will be in our deathbed

So with this, I pray to get with all my heart and soul
I wish her to remember me, the good and the bad
Remember who I am and who I was
Because I remember what I did to her

Life isn't perfect, I'm not a perfect prince for her
I'm not romantic nor faithful
But I'm truthful, which hurt us both
If I'm not meant for her, then why this haunting me
Yes, I took that line straight from Daniel Bedingfield song

I remember her words, "we only realize it when we lost that which are dear and precious to us."
Now it's just regret for me, and people asking me if I love her, why I left her
I cannot give you straight answer my friend, I can only say I won't make mistake like this again
Probably, cause I'm a man. I might not be faithful, but I will try to keep promise to myself

Even thought she doesn't care about me anymore, let me remember how kind she was to me
Even thought she hate me forever, let me remember what made me love her in the first place
Even thought she will fade me from her memory, let me keep her inside the box which is inside my head

With this I held my head up high, facing the sky
Holding back the tears... singing "oo muite....


ue o muite arukou
namida ga kobore naiyouni
omoidasu harunohi
hitoribotchi no yoru

ue o muite arukou
nijinda hosi o kazoete
omoidasu natsunohi
hitoribotchi no yoru

shiawase wa kumo no ueni
shiawase wa sora no ueni

ue o muite arukou
namida ga kobore naiyouni
nakinagara aruku
hitoribotchi no yoru

omoidasu akinohi
hitoribotchi no yoru

kanashimi wa hosino kageni
kanashimi wa tsukino kageni

ue o muite arukou
namida ga kobore naiyouni
nakinagara aruku
hitoribotchi no yoru

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I look up when I walk so the tears won't fall
Remembering those happy spring days
But tonight I'm all alone

I look up when I walk, counting the stars with tearful eyes
Remembering those happy summer days
But tonight I'm all alone

Happiness lies beyond the clouds
Happiness lies above the sky

I look up when I walk so the tears won't fall
Though my heart is filled with sorrow
For tonight I'm all alone

whistling

Remembering those happy autumn days
But tonight I'm all alone

Sadness hides in the shadow of the stars
Sadness lurks in the shadow of the moon

I look up when I walk so the tears won't fall
Though my heart is filled with sorrow
For tonight I'm all alone

Things I neglect - Being Good One

This is a reflection of myself, a step to being a good person. Things that I neglect;

I rarely stop and pickup the stuff that people drop. I mostly just ignore it
I rarely lend a hand to a person who move his luggage into the train. I mostly just standing by watching
I rarely stop and listen to the musician playing his songs. I mostly just drop some coins and go away
I rarely have time to visit my friends. I mostly spend my time at home
I rarely call home to my family. I mostly spend my time alone